Video Killed the Radio Star

I need to stop making weird references in this blog.....

Over the last month or so I've been amazed by how much this blog has grown. What started as a little side project has quickly become a part of my life with it's own schedule and stuff. Where I used to fill my days playing Diablo III I now spend it writing, or at least tinkering away at different things. And with that growth comes expansion, that is the subject of today's post.

I've been thinking a lot lately about what I could do to expand on what I'm already doing. These blogs are great an all but I think there are certain expectations in how they are presented. I've always done these blogs the same, I write them in one go. Edit as necessary then post straight online. I don't want to come across as a super confident writer who doubles up as a walking thesaurus because that's not me in real life. I have the most limited vocabulary out of anyone your likely to meet and that always worries me when writing. Oh and my grammar is shocking. Just check out all those unnecessary commas and full stops, it's a crime to the English language. These expectations also shape the amount I write on each blog. I always want to make sure I have enough content on each post for you to read and think about without going too short or too long. Although that's not really an issue I sometimes worry if I've said enough.

Soooo for a while now I've been toying with the idea of doing Vlogs connected to my Youtube account. There I could maybe do little video bits to camera or perhaps even explore some of the topics I discuss here in the form of a video essay. I could interview people too, adding another dimension to this blog. I come from a video background. I've been making films since I was around 14 and it's something which I love doing. Maybe combining it alongside my written stuff could be just what this page needs.

Hey Youtube !

The more I think about it though the more worried I get about it. So just to gauge your thoughts on it as a community I'm going to put down some of my anxieties here and we can take it from there.

First of all I still have a very distinctive accent. It also fluctuates between really high and quite low and as a result I've had difficulty in mastering my 'Female Voice'. I guess I become far more self aware when trying to and I don't want to come across as if I am pretending or putting on an act. I'm sure it doesn't matter what I sound like but inside I will notice. The good thing with pictures and words is you can make up how I act and what I sound like. I'm worried that I would break that illusion for some of the readers who haven't had the misfortune of meeting me in person. Then again to sound like a cliche I've always wanted this blog to be a true representation of me, with all my problems and weaknesses on show. So it's a question of keeping up appearances vs being who I am.

Just for the record Keeping up Appearances is an amazing TV show !

Sue me !

I'm also kind of worried about the outside world. As you are all aware although I am out in a lot of circles there are still aspects that I want to for the moment keep out of the loop. Work is one such place as I wouldn't want to risk what I'm doing because of a video. This sounds really weird I'm sure but I have finally found a job that I love and I don't ever want to risk that. Also there are circles of acquaintances that right now are not aware (or as far as I know) and so I'm paranoid about being out there too much. Yeah I'm on here but this is quite specialised. Vlogging can be very universal and I worry that it could catch on too fast.

And lastly it will only be once every few months that I do it. I want there to be a reason for my to switch the cam on and look all amazing for you folks. I don't really need to expand upon this point much more but if I did it would only be a few times a year. It all depends on whether it is worth doing that I suppose.

I'd really appreciate your feedback on this one ! Let me know in the comments. In my email or on my  brand new sexy Twitter account @Charlottewbuzz. Or you know go follow me there and listen to me rambling on about how much I love Jack Daniels.

I am working on another more in depth blog and that should be with you all shortly. Until then I guess take it easy....

Charlotte xxx